Welcome to A Million Miracles.

In February of 2008 I was diagnosed with an incurable, progressive and terminal condition called Idiopathic Primary Pulmonary Hypertension (PH). In retrospect, we can trace this illness back to at least January of 2004, but you can have it for several years before you notice any symptoms. My diagnosis came after I was hospitalized for what ended up being almost three weeks - spent consecutively in three different hospitals - two of them being in ICU units. Over the past year we have been sending email updates to family and friends concerning my medical/physical journey as well as lessons I'm learning as a result.

These are those emails. There's no rhyme or reason as to when I send out another email update. It just happens when "the Spirit moves." But whenever I write and send one, I will also post it on this blog.

Sunday, May 3, 2009

#42 - So long, farewell ...

Date Sent: Sun, May 3, 2009 at 4:51 PM

... auf Wiedersehen, adieu! Adieu, adieu, to yieu and yieu and yieu ...

Goodbye Flolan. Goodbye rash on my arms, chest, and back! Goodbye red face and hands - at least for the time-being.

I was admitted to UPMC Presby on Tuesday at noon. The rest of that day was spent doing various tests (ekg, chest x-rays, etc.), and just resting! Overnight I was finally moved from whatever bed was open in the hospital, to the step-down cardiac unit I "visited" during last year's hospital stay. Wednesday morning was spent with the staff deciding the logistics of how to transition me to the new drug, and finally the attending doctor pulled out his trump card and said that they'd just unscrew the Flolan, and screw on the iv tube of the Remodulin. This switch happened a few minutes before noon on Wednesday - and start to finish only took two minutes. Not long after I was put back on oxygen for a couple hours while my body adjusted and built up a "therapeutic dose" of the new drug in my bloodstream. Both drugs act similarly in the body - they help dilate the blood vessels of my lungs to help blood pump easier through them, and in turn help me breathe easier. However the dosage for each drug is different, and dosing is more of an "art than a science" for both of them. As such, we've been told different estimates of how much Flolan equals how much Remodulin. But no matter which is more accurate for my body (each person reacts slightly differently to these two drugs) - I am currently on a MUCH SMALLER DOSE of Remodulin than I was of Flolan - possibly up to 1/3 or 1/2 less! This is both good and not-so-good. Let me explain.

THE GOOD: it is a MIRACLE that I am functioning as well as I am on as little as I am (currently it's 23 ng of Remodulin)! Based on how much I AM able to do right now, there's no way that I will ever be increased to the amount of Remodulin I MIGHT HAVE BEEN ON right now. If the on-duty (and very knowledgeable) doctor didn't make the decision to put me on identical numeric dose of Remodulin (and let my personal doctor decide after I was discharged how much I will increase), then I wouldn't know that God's healed/healing me enough that I can function this well (relatively speaking) on this little!

THE NOT-SO-GOOD: I am impatient, and annoyed that I'm not able to carry Harrison up the stairs right now, or do other strenuous activities. Actually I should be using oxygen at the moment to walk up the steps or to walk any kind of distance (like shopping or going to church). Also, if it's harder for me to breathe, then my slightly-less dilated blood vessels are putting stress on my ALMOST TOTALLY HEALED heart.

The Friday before I was admitted (and I was visiting my mother in Wheeling) I went to the doctor there to get an antibiotic just in case the "cold" I had needed one. I didn't want to have to wait around a couple days in the hospital for my "cold" to clear up if the doctor decided I needed to do a round of antibiotics first. A girlfriend went with me to get the antibiotic - and while there it was decided that I should have a chest x-ray done to make sure my lungs were clear. I mentioned to the doctor (who I had never gone to before, but she was the one on duty) that I already know that the right side of my heart is VERY enlarged, so that wouldn't be "something new." After reading the x-ray, the doctor commented that it really isn't that bad. I asked what that meant, and she led the two of us down the hall to take a look at the x-ray. Fourteen months ago the right side of my heart was 2.5 times LARGER than it should have been (and it's supposed to be SMALLER than the left). When she showed me the image I didn't recognize it (in a good way)! I asked her to show me where the heart is supposed to "stop," and on the screen it was MAYBE 1/2 centimeter beyond the line she traced with her fingernail! PRAISE GOD - MY HEART IS ALMOST TOTALLY RE-REMODELED TO THE CORRECT SIZE!!!!!!! This is something that NO doctor could promise would EVER happen!!!!!

So - back to the medicine transition this past week. They switched ivs just before noon on Wednesday. By 3:00 I was feeling more "normal" and off of the oxygen. Also by 3:00 we noticed that the "Flolan rash" (which was actually an allergic reaction to the medicine) that had been on my arms, chest, and back for probably 10+ months was totally gone! By 5:00 that evening I noticed that the permanent redness on my left leg from the cold ice packs was also gone! And sometime between 3 and 5 the redness left my face and hands! I was told that the redness will probably return as I increase the Remodulin (and that it's a sign the medicine is doing its job), but for the time-being, I'm SO GLAD to be able to see my skin a nice "peachy" color rather than red! Wednesday evening and overnight I struggled with very low (for me) blood pressure, and more than one person has told me that they felt that God woke them up to pray for me during the night. Thank you to those people for those prayers! I was much improved by Thursday morning, and the doctors decided to discharge me by noon on Thursday. After taking care of some personal business in the area on Thursday, and a nice "date" at the Olive Garden in Cranberry, we made the trek home, and got here around 10pm. Alex was allowed to stay up till we got home, and was so much relieved to see that "Mommy looked okay." After he went to bed I struggled (with oxygen on) to make it up the steps for bed. But after scooting up backwards, on my rear, one step at a time, I finally succeeded. A couple days later I am quite a bit stronger, but that kind of exertion still requires oxygen.

My personal PH doctor wasn't scheduled to be on duty at the hospital while I was there (his partner managed the increase), but still stopped in to visit each day - and we spent the visits talking about interesting personal (non-medical) topics. Seeing how "happy/pleased/energized" he was each visit showed us in a tangible way that he's incredibly enthusiastic about my progress! I've been given permission by him to "increase" the dosage once or twice a week - however I see fit. I'm hoping to push through and do it as frequently as possible so that I'll regain my strength/stamina sooner rather than later. My mother has moved back in with us for the month, and we're hoping that by the end of May we'll be able to function as a family unit without her staying here. But we covet your prayers especially during this month as I try to regain my strength. Thank you to everyone who prayed before, during, and now after my hospitalization last week! The change was SO MUCH SMOOTHER than it was "supposed to" have been! I am still confident that "he who began a good work in [me] will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus." (Philippians 1:6b)

~ Julia

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